Note to the kids...

Hey boy and girls lol. I hope you guys are doing well. I was just sitting here in the middle of the night typing and listening to old K Ci and JoJo songs. Thinking about someone that I loved and thinking of you 5 also. It's tough but Daddy is getting through it... slowly. Tonight I erased some of her pics from Facebook but theyre still saved in my computer nevertheless. One of my favorites is "How Could You". Started listening to that one on repeat back in '96. Of course it was about a girl lol. Right about now I bet you guys have some how-could-you's for me too huh. Like Kayla wondering how I could leave Muskegon... Or Mo Mo and New New wondering how I could leave Memphis... How could I leave Nala and not even tell her about Mi Mi... Only God knows what else is plaguing your minds about me. Daddy definitely made many mistakes. I just hope you all forgive me one day and we get the chance to put this behind us and be a family as best as we can be. One day when my selfishness has subsided and I've gotten my head out of my own ass fully lol. If I had to leave you guys with one thing right now it would be the patience your great great grandmother Mattie Ruth and your grandmother Mackie and your great grandmother Lafalene have passed to you through me. Patience to make the right decisions and courage to see them through. Whatever path God has placed you on only you can walk it. No one else can for you. Dont let anyone rob you of that right and privilege. Dont abuse it either. There isnt a need to rush anything. Especially love. Love has to grow and its a two way street. Agape is for everyone and everything but your eros is special and unique and valuable. Guard it passionately. If you arent getting it you dont have to give it. Plain and simple. Stay focused on your dreams and it will come. Daddy loves you all!!